Behind The Smile with Ash Butterss

Growth isn't always comfortable, and sometimes the hardest part is continuing to choose it, especially when it means letting go of people, patterns and versions of ourselves we've outgrown.

To celebrate 200 episodes of Behind the Smile, Ash is joined by her dear friend Danni Carr, for an honest conversation about the growing pains that come with personal transformation.

Together, they explore what it means to keep choosing growth, even when it feels uncomfortable. From navigating changing friendships and family dynamics to practising acceptance, releasing control and staying curious when life doesn't unfold as expected.

They reflect on the importance of compassionate boundaries, recognising old wounds when they resurface, and learning to trust the process rather than resist it.
Because growth isn't about reaching a destination or having it all figured out. It's about remaining open, embracing the uncomfortable and surrounding yourself with people who encourage you to keep evolving.

Episode chapters:
00:08 Celebrating 200 Episodes
01:49 Touring the Gospel Shows with Family on Stage
07:09 Growth, Ruts and Choosing Life Enhancing Habits
11:12 Spiritual Bypassing and Awareness
14:57 Danni’s Spiritual Journey: Saying Yes
18:57 Letting Go of Control and Living in the Flow
22:13 A Joyful Breathwork Experience
26:09 Friendship Ruptures and Grief
31:39 The Linking Practice and Your Front Row People
35:43 Staying True When Others Want the Old You
41:20 What Danni Says No To
44:27 Upcoming Retreats and Sign Off

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Connect with Danni using the links below:
IG: @howiquitalcohol
Website: www.iquitalcohol.com.au

Upcoming Retreats
The Embodied Woman 5 Day Retreat | April 21 - 25, 2027 | Find Out More
Courage To Heal: Childhood Trauma Retreat | June 14 - 21, 2027 | Find Out More
A Sacred Return | Bali | August 16 - 20, 2027 | Find Out More
Email support@ashbutterss.com for more information

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⁠Instagram⁠ @ashbutterss
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Website⁠ www.ashbutterss.com
Watch Ash’s TEDx Talk here!
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Do you ever wonder why you keep repeating the same patterns, even when you know better?

Why you keep choosing the same kinds of relationships, struggling to hold boundaries, abandoning your own needs, or finding yourself back in the same emotional place you promised yourself you’d never return to?

The answer may lie much deeper than you think.

This week, Ash sits down with leading addiction specialist and psychotherapist Diane Young for a powerful conversation about childhood trauma, emotional immaturity and the unconscious patterns we carry into adulthood.

Diane explains why all trauma counts, including the experiences we’ve learned to minimise or dismiss, and how unmet needs in childhood can shape our self-worth, boundaries, relationships and the way we cope when life gets hard.

Together, Ash and Diane explore why so many of us wait until the wheels completely fall off before we seek help, what it really means to become emotionally mature, and why healing isn’t about blaming your parents or getting stuck in the past. It’s about understanding where your patterns came from so you can finally choose something different.

Drawing on Pia Mellody’s developmental model of emotional immaturity and Diane’s extensive experience with the Changes program, they also explore why deep healing can be so powerful within a small, safe and held group environment.

And there’s a very exciting announcement from Diane and Ash that you won’t want to miss.

Because you can understand your patterns intellectually and still keep repeating them.

Real healing begins when you become willing to understand what’s underneath them.

Episode chapters:
00:02 Welcome Back, Diane Young
01:11 How Mental Health Awareness Has Shifted
02:44 Big T, Little T and Why It’s All Trauma
05:59 The Nine Needs Every Child Has
07:25 Pia Mellody and the Developmental Model of Immaturity
12:15 The Changes Program and Why It Transforms
15:49 How Courage to Heal Came to Life in Bali
19:06 Giving Back What Isn’t Yours
23:44 Love Addiction, Avoidance and Relationship Patterns
26:07 Self-Esteem and Boundaries
30:44 Why Small Groups and Aftercare Matter
37:40 Closing and Retreat Details

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Connect with Diane below:
www.dianeyoung.com

Upcoming Retreats

Courage To Heal: Childhood Trauma Retreat | June 14 - 21, 2027 | Find Out More
Email hello@ashbutterss.com for more information

The Embodied Woman 5 Day Retreat | April 21 - 25, 2027 | Find Out More

A Sacred Return | Bali | August 16 - 20, 2027 | Find Out More

Follow and connect with Ash on:
⁠Instagram⁠ @ashbutterss
TikTok @behindthesmilewithashb
Website⁠ www.ashbutterss.com
Watch Ash’s TEDx Talk here!
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What if the part of you that you keep trying to change is actually the part of you that most needs to be understood?

You can know your patterns, understand where they came from and have plenty of self-awareness, yet still find yourself repeating the same cycles. Because insight is only one part of the story. Sometimes, the deeper work is learning to listen to what lives beneath the pattern.

This week, I’m joined by therapist and spiritual guide Laurie Nouchka, for a conversation about the parts of ourselves we often try to fix, silence or move beyond, and what becomes possible when we meet them with curiosity instead.

Laurie shares how a painful breakup at 25 shaped her relationships for years, the unexpected path that took her from life drawing and yoga to Internal Family Systems therapy, and what she’s learnt about distinguishing intuition from fear. We talk about the wisdom held in the body, the ways our nervous system can keep us living from old stories, and what it really means to trust ourselves again.

It’s a conversation about going beneath the surface, meeting the parts of ourselves we’ve spent years trying to outrun, and creating enough space to hear what they’ve been trying to tell us. Because we can’t think our way out of what we haven’t yet allowed ourselves to feel.

Episode chapters:
01:13 Meet Laurie and Her Daily Rituals
09:12 The Photo: Smiling Through a Painful Breakup
14:07 Fear of Being Alone and the “I’m Not Enough” Story
19:09 From Life Drawing in Melbourne to Yoga
24:58 Discovering Internal Family Systems
27:32 What IFS Is and How Our Parts Protect Us
33:38 Why We Run From Discomfort
38:04 Creating Safety in the Nervous System
42:49 Trusting Your Intuition Versus Fear
47:04 Nature as a Go-To Practice
49:32 A Celebration of Life and Death
55:10 Laurie’s Three Non-Negotiables

Connect with Laurie through the links below:
Instagram: @laurienoucka
Website: www.laurienouchka.com

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Upcoming Retreats
The Embodied Woman One Day Retreat | October 25th | Find Out More
The Embodied Woman 5 Day Retreat | April 21 - 25, 2027 | Find Out More
Courage To Heal: Childhood Trauma Retreat | June 14 - 21, 2027
Email hello@ashbutterss.com for more information

A Sacred Return | Bali | August 16 - 20, 2027
Email hello@ashbutterss.com for more information

Follow and connect with Ash on:
⁠Instagram⁠ @ashbutterss
TikTok @behindthesmilewithashb
Website⁠ www.ashbutterss.com
Watch Ash’s TEDx Talk here!
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My guest this week is Jason Dobbie, a chef of 26 years who got sober while still running professional kitchens. Sobriety, though, did not answer the question underneath it all: who am I? Eight years on, Jason leads a community of more than 750 people working through that same question, and he joins Ash to unpack what it actually took to rebuild a sense of self from the ground up.

Jason and Ash talk about quitting marijuana years after quitting alcohol, the moment a spiritual awakening cracked his life wide open, and the discomfort of becoming a different person. He shares how learning to put himself first, speak his truth and trust his intuition eventually led him to walk away from a lucrative head chef job for a life built on purpose and alignment.

It is a conversation about the long, often unglamorous work of self-discovery, and a reminder that sobriety is only ever the beginning of finding out who you really are.

Episode chapters:
00:08 Meet Jason: 26 Years a Chef, 750 People in Community
01:02 Building a Community From a Meditation Group
02:43 A Day in Jason’s Life Now
04:13 Where His Drive Really Comes From
06:02 The Photo: Successful on the Outside, Empty on the Inside
08:52 Quitting Weed After 25 Years
10:43 The Veil Effect of Weed and Alcohol
12:07 Why He Finally Quit Drinking
14:34 Free Health Care, Group Therapy and Finding Meditation
18:18 A Shared Story of Spiritual Awakening
20:43 Sober but Lost: Who Am I Now
22:13 The Turning Point at the Mirror
26:39 Learning to Put Himself First
30:52 The Body Signal That Pointed Him Toward a New Career
38:09 Reframing Meditation as Just Paying Attention
44:26 Jason’s Three Non-Negotiables

Connect with Jason here:
Instagram: https://www.instagram.com/jason.dobbie/
YouTube: https://www.youtube.com/@jason.dobbie

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Upcoming Retreats
The Embodied Woman One Day Retreat | October 25th | Find Out More
The Embodied Woman 5 Day Retreat | April 21 - 25, 2027 | Find Out More
Courage To Heal: Childhood Trauma Retreat | June 14 - 21, 2027
Email hello@ashbutterss.com for more information
A Sacred Return | Bali | August 16 - 20, 2027
Email hello@ashbutterss.com for more information

Follow and connect with Ash on:
⁠Instagram⁠ @ashbutterss
TikTok @behindthesmilewithashb
Website⁠ www.ashbutterss.com
Watch Ash’s TEDx Talk here!
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In this solo episode, Ash reflects on a recent trip to the Gold Coast, where she spent five nights at a wellness retreat, not as a facilitator but as a guest. Away from Wi-Fi and her usual pace of life, she unpacks five lessons that surfaced in the stillness. From remembering to trust the wisdom of her body, to rereading an old favourite book and discovering how much she herself had changed, there were plenty of downloads she wanted to share.

Ash also discusses the importance of balancing mental, physical, emotional and spiritual health rather than over focusing on just one or two, and how you can achieve this without creating more overwhelm. This is a reflective, practical episode about what it looks like to actually slow down, listen inward, and trust the shifts that quietly ask to be made.

Episode chapters:
00:00 Retreat Announcement
01:13 Coming Back From Eden Retreat
03:38 A Life of Bookends: Regulated Mornings, Full Steam Days
08:18 Choosing Your Own Adventure at Eden
10:39 Trusting the Body Over the Aura Ring
15:09 The Nervous System Check and the 99th Percentile Surprise
17:23 Hearing the Whisper to Step Back From Teaching
21:59 Saying Yes and Watching Life Respond
24:12 Rereading The Untethered Soul Years Later
28:53 Releasing a Resentment Through Energy, Not Defense
31:10 The Joy of Talking to Strangers
33:32 The Four Pillars of Health
43:01 A New Offering Coming in January

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Upcoming Retreats
The Embodied Woman One Day Retreat | October 25th | Find Out More
The Embodied Woman 5 Day Retreat | April 21 - 25, 2027 | Find Out More
Courage To Heal: Childhood Trauma Retreat | June 14 - 21, 2027
Email hello@ashbutterss.com for more information
A Sacred Return | Bali | August 16 - 20, 2027
Email hello@ashbutterss.com for more information

Follow and connect with Ash on:
⁠Instagram⁠ @ashbutterss
TikTok @behindthesmilewithashb
Website⁠ www.ashbutterss.com
Watch Ash’s TEDx Talk here!
Hosted on Acast. See acast.com/privacy for more information.