Heal 2 Feel with Liat Gerszt & Mercedes Javid

In this deeply honest and transformational episode of Heal 2 Feel, we sit down with Colette Abedi and Kerry Rhodes for an unforgettable conversation about plant medicine, grief, identity, and what real healing actually requires.
Colette shares how losing her father led her to ayahuasca—and ultimately to producing The Medicine documentary and writing her novel My Uncaged Summer. Kerry opens up about life after the NFL, surrendering control, ego death, and how plant medicine helped him reconnect to his purpose, his voice, and himself.
This episode explores the truth many people miss: plant medicine isn't the cure — it opens the door. The work is still yours.
If you're navigating grief, divorce, identity shifts, or standing at the edge of a deeper healing journey, this conversation will meet you right where you are.
Episode Timestamps
00:00 – The truth about healing: "It's not the cure — the cure is inside you" 02:00 – Why plant medicine became part of this journey 05:20 – Colette's grief, losing her father, and saying yes to ayahuasca 08:45 – "I saw my dad" — breaking the veil & life after death 12:10 – What ayahuasca actually feels like (the purge + surrender) 15:00 – Kerry's life after the NFL & fear of losing control 18:45 – Ego death, therapy, and asking: Is there more inside me? 22:30 – Reliving childhood wounds & the power of remembering 26:00 – Seeing life from the higher self perspective 30:00 – Past lives, energy, and altered states of consciousness 35:00 – Why plant medicine can blow up your life (and why that's okay) 40:15 – Leaving marriages, choosing yourself, and sacred endings 45:00 – From validation to self-love 49:30 – Healing masculine & feminine energy 53:30 – Colette's book My Uncaged Summer & Persian culture 58:00 – Dating, soul connections & being whole on your own 1:02:00 – Final reflections: when the medicine calls
Colette Abedi Author | Producer 📖 My Uncaged Summer (available everywhere books are sold) 📸 Instagram: @coletteabedi
Kerry Rhodes Former NFL Player | Actor | Musician 🎵 New single: Hush 📸 Instagram: @kerryon_
 
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In this episode, we sit down with holistic dating coach Amy to talk about what most of us were never taught: relational skills—and how to intentionally choose love from an aligned place (instead of repeating patterns from fear). Amy breaks down her Four Pillars of Aligned Love and shares how she helps clients shift their energy, stop "dating from the wound," and build real, sustainable chemistry.
You'll hear why "spark" isn't the whole story, what emotional maturity actually looks like early on, how to spot readiness (and why it's the hardest pillar), and how gratitude can completely change your dating experience. This one is part dating strategy, part spiritual reset—aka Heal 2 Feel style.
What You'll Learn
The Four Pillars of Aligned Love: Chemistry, Emotional Maturity, Core Values, Readiness

Why "no spark in 5 minutes" is usually a trap—and what real chemistry is

How to stop attracting emotionally unavailable partners

The "Choose Me" lens (and how to flip it into Choose Yourself)

Why gratitude is a superpower in dating (and in life)

How childhood wounds quietly shape adult relationship patterns

What Amy means by "dating from the wound" vs dating from love
Timestamps
00:00 The most important skill we should learn in middle school: relational skills 00:35 Meet Amy + what "Love, Amy" is (a 4-month intensive) 01:19 Why energy blocks can keep love away—even when you're "doing all the things" 02:29 Readiness: why some people say they want love, but aren't actually ready 03:40 Amy's origin story: leaving a 20-year marriage + trusting the leap 05:59 Meditation as the turning point: "messages" and learning to listen 07:05 "If you really look back, you will see." 08:12 Dating as a full-time "spiritual practice" + making mistakes on purpose 10:28 "Are we dating from our wound?" 12:24 Amy's early spiritual experience (and how it shaped her path) 15:11 Becoming more "you" attracts more aligned partners 17:22 Coaching example: shifting from fear to love in real time 18:55 Banter on apps: why it feels stilted + how to make it natural 23:00 The Four Pillars breakdown begins 23:54 Sustainable chemistry: emotional intimacy first (slow burn > spark) 24:54 Emotional maturity: the early-date questions that reveal everything 25:59 Core values: "What are you grateful for right now?" 27:03 Readiness: the hardest pillar to diagnose (and why) 29:39 The "Choose Me" lens + reclaiming your quirky self 32:59 Why people numb pain (and how feeling it releases it) 35:17 Gratitude as a dating superpower + "find someone's magic" 36:20 What success looks like (it's not just "finding someone") 42:19 Helping clients once they meet someone: building a strong foundation 44:57 Visioning exercise: what you think you want vs what you truly need 46:19 Love Is Blind: what it gets right—and what it's missing 48:16 The pattern of chasing the undeserving: earning love + healing maps 50:26 The discomfort of dating differently + upper limiting 54:08 Where to find Amy + how to work with her 55:09 Show wrap + how to submit questions
Guest Contact Info (Amy — Love, Amy)
Website: loveamy.co

Instagram: @lovethatamy (spoken as "Love That Amy" in the episode)

Program: Love, Amy — 4-month intensive holistic dating coaching


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Credits Hosts: Liat Gerszt & Mercedes "MJ" Javid Production: Sylvirgale Productions Drops: Wednesdays (subscribe for weekly releases)

In this raw, real-time healing session, Shannon opens up about shame, self-worth, family wounds, and relationship patterns—and bravely steps into her first hypnosis experience on camera. Shinka connects with powerful loved-one messages from Spirit, while Joe breaks down the subconscious patterns that keep us stuck (and how to finally release them).
Expect tears, breakthroughs, and that Dare to Heal magic—where healing happens in real time.
Timestamps
00:00 Welcome back to Dare to Heal (part of Heal 2 Feel) 00:57 What Dare to Heal is + what to expect from this segment 01:20 Shannon Beador joins the healing circle 01:34 Meet the healers: Shinka + Joe Tabb 03:43 Spirit begins coming through immediately 04:15 Shannon's grandfather's message: confidence, beauty, self-worth 05:02 A maternal-line female energy comes through (grandmother) 06:20 A cancer-connected message + "Joy" comes through with validation + a butterfly sign 09:03 Shannon's dad "Gene the Machine" + family context 10:13 Shannon's upbringing: parents' relationship, fighting, drinking, infidelity 12:03 Feeling distant from dad growing up + closeness with mom 13:54 Reconnection + father's emotional moment: "I live for seeing you." 14:30 Forgiveness theme: it's not only about dad—mom, too 16:01 Shannon's commitment year: focusing on self + family 17:09 "Dog poop" shame story + how quickly shame can latch on 18:08 Relationship patterns begin: betrayal, love bombing, fear of being left 21:49 Joe's breakdown: the "brains" (primitive, mammalian, conditioned/human) + subconscious patterns 23:24 The 3 core subconscious wounds Joe sees most: abandonment, control, not-good-enough 25:29 Shannon connects her childhood turbulence to her relationship patterns 27:10 Shinka names the deeper imprint: early betrayal + what "man" became associated with 32:14 Shinka's message: return to the younger self (around 16) + reclaim self-worth 33:09 Joe defines belief systems + how they're formed 33:53 Shannon says yes: "Let's do it." (healing/hypnosis begins) 34:15 Identifying the stuck belief: "I'm not good enough" + fear of being "found out" 36:38 Root age identified: ~7–8 years old 40:33 "Release that decision—NOW." (core moment of reframe + release) 41:55 Emotional release (tears) + "letting love in" 44:33 Shannon returns: first hypnosis experience + processing 46:33 What changes after this? Repatterning + "generalizing" the new belief 48:21 "Shame is the gateway drug." (powerful reframe) 50:07 Shannon on DUI shame + accountability + serving at church 52:03 Shinka reframes the lesson: perfection isn't real + kids learn resilience 56:16 Bravocon accountability moment + facing it head-on 58:27 Joe on projection/transference + why comments don't hit the same anymore 01:00:05 Shannon's early Twitter clapbacks: "Do you feel better now?" 01:01:08 Friendship boundaries + keeping cast relationships as "work" 01:02:58 Tamra dynamics + boundaries + healing shifts 01:07:30 Shannon as an example for others going through it 01:12:05 Spirit returns: a young love (motorcycle accident) + "you were the love of his life" 01:15:28 The "age 16" thread returns + early affection / first "I love you" 01:17:47 Where to book Shinka + Joe 01:19:26 Outro + write-ins + rate & review reminder
Shinka — Psychic Medium / Healer
Website: MySpiritualHealings.com

Sessions: In-person or Zoom

Location: Woodland Hills, CA

Joe Tabb — Hypnotherapist / The TABB Technique
Website: TheTabbTechnique.com

Bookings: Sessions available via the site

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Hosts: Liat Gerszt & Mercedes "MJ" Javid Production: Sylvirgale Productions Drops: Wednesdays (subscribe for weekly releases)

In this raw and heartfelt update episode of Heal 2 Feel, Mercedes "MJ" Javid joins Liat in the hot seat to talk about the very real aftermath of filing for divorce from Tommy after seven years of marriage.
MJ opens up about the grief that comes with ending a marriage — the emotional weight of packing up a life, sorting through memories, and navigating the logistics of moving while protecting her energy and staying strong for Shams.
Liat and MJ also unpack the deeper layers: loneliness inside a relationship, the silent treatment, emotional disconnection, and why "staying together for the kids" can sometimes teach the wrong definition of love. Through it all, MJ shares what's surprised her most about this new chapter — including how she already feels lighter, clearer, and more like herself again.
This episode is a reminder that sometimes the bravest thing you can do is choose your peace — even when it's painful — and trust that life on the other side will meet you with something better.
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Timestamps
00:00 MJ on "rediscovering everything" in this new chapter 00:15 Welcome + MJ in the hot seat 00:53 MJ filed for divorce from Tommy (7 years) 01:13 Divorce grief: "It's like a death… but they're still there" 01:37 The reality of moving + leaving the family home 02:57 A home as a "live photo album" 03:00 Sorting memories, donating, and the emotional weight of purging 04:20 The marriage timeline + shared history in their homes 05:20 Protecting Shams emotionally + what he's noticing so far 05:37 Liat asks: do you have regrets? 06:02 MJ on trying for a long time + feeling disrespected 07:44 Did you outgrow each other? The breaking point 07:51 Apathy, isolation, and feeling taken for granted 08:12 "Lonely in the relationship" 09:06 Staying "for the wrong reasons" 09:32 Liat: why "stay together for the kids" can backfire (subconscious conditioning) 10:33 Why kids want happy parents — and how divorce is handled matters 12:18 The loneliest years + reaching for emotional connection 13:47 Specific example: weekends, sports, and feeling shut out 15:54 The "golf course" dynamic and unmet emotional needs 16:47 Liat reflects on the cycle of shutdown + numbing 17:33 Kabbalah concept: when one grows and the other doesn't 18:06 MJ: Tommy doesn't see his part yet (still raw) 19:05 Logistics + co-parenting in the middle of the move 19:59 Halloween setback + how arguments still show up 20:31 Liat: MJ seems lighter already 21:24 "Higher vibration" + attracting new opportunities 22:28 MJ on protecting her energy through the process 23:15 Grief, love, and accepting "we're not good together" 24:19 The reality of moving chaos (deliveries, exhaustion, survival mode) 25:16 Liat: MJ's glow + "500 bricks off your back" 26:08 MJ: fear, judgment, and making sure Shams is okay 27:31 How Shams is handling two homes so far 28:06 Working together on the move — amicable overall 29:11 Public reaction + how fast it moved 29:28 Advice for anyone scared to leave 30:06 "This needed to happen no matter what" 31:13 Purging a house = purging your life 31:59 MJ stops late-night shopping (no longer filling the void) 32:48 Liat: shifting from surviving to living 33:12 "2026 MJ is coming back to life" 33:40 Closing + parting words 33:59 Outro + how to submit questions + rate/review

On this episode of Heal to Feel, we sit down with Scarlett Lewis, founder of the Choose Love Movement, whose son Jesse was one of the children killed in the Sandy Hook tragedy (December 14, 2012). Choose Love Movement
Scarlett shares Jesse's extraordinary courage, the three words he left behind — "Nurturing, Healing, Love" — and how that message became a global movement centered on love, connection, belonging, and post-traumatic growth. 
We talk about what Scarlett calls the "choice moment" — the pause between what happens and how we respond — and how teaching kids essential life skills can change homes, classrooms, and communities. Scarlett also opens up about forgiveness, humanizing pain, and the life-changing power of one act of kindness.
If this episode moved you, share it with someone who needs hope, healing, and a reminder that love is the strongest choice we have.
Timestamps 
00:00 – Intro / "It's hard to give love to someone who doesn't love themselves" 01:02 – Meet Scarlett Lewis + Jesse's heroism 02:47 – Scarlett's prayer the day Jesse was born 04:20 – Jesse "patrolling" the farm + bravery from the start 05:30 – The chalkboard message: "Nurturing, Healing, Love" 08:24 – "I love you" in the frost + Jesse's hearts on the windows 09:16 – "That's not going to happen" + Jesse's final goodbye to his dad 12:40 – Scarlett's "couch moment" + choosing her path forward 15:38 – Modeling grief and strength for her surviving son 18:39 – Forgiveness + compassion (even when it's hard) 21:54 – Missed signs + why curiosity matters 24:19 – The common thread: not feeling seen 26:25 – Aaron Stark + the kindness that stopped a planned shooting 27:44 – The Choose Love formula + "choice moment" model 29:04 – Why love, connection, and belonging are the foundation (relationships) Choose Love Movement 31:28 – Post-traumatic growth + focusing on the "grievance" end of the pathway 35:23 – Scarlett's prison story: "You saved two lives" 39:38 – Signs from Jesse + the "healing adventure" 46:01 – Skywriting: "Jesse and Jesus" + "You + God :)" 49:10 – Results in schools: behavior down, scores up, lives changed 50:59 – Town meeting + standing ovation for a love-based solution 52:21 – Working with administrations + proactive prevention 54:22 – The goal: free access for every child 56:07 – How to bring Choose Love to your school + how to contact
Guest + resources (links to include)
Choose Love Movement (official site): chooselovemovement.org 

Book: Nurturing Healing Love (Scarlett Lewis)
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