Heal 2 Feel with Liat Gerszt & Mercedes Javid

In this raw and heartfelt update episode of Heal 2 Feel, Mercedes "MJ" Javid joins Liat in the hot seat to talk about the very real aftermath of filing for divorce from Tommy after seven years of marriage. MJ opens up about the grief that comes with ending a marriage — the emotional weight of packing up a life, sorting through memories, and navigating the logistics of moving while protecting her energy and staying strong for Shams. Liat and MJ also unpack the deeper layers: loneliness inside a relationship, the silent treatment, emotional disconnection, and why "staying together for the kids" can sometimes teach the wrong definition of love. Through it all, MJ shares what's surprised her most about this new chapter — including how she already feels lighter, clearer, and more like herself again. This episode is a reminder that sometimes the bravest thing you can do is choose your peace — even when it's painful — and trust that life on the other side will meet you with something better. Follow the show: @h2fpod Rate & review: Apple Podcasts + Spotify (it helps more than you know!) Share with a friend who needs a little courage right now. Timestamps 00:00 MJ on "rediscovering everything" in this new chapter 00:15 Welcome + MJ in the hot seat 00:53 MJ filed for divorce from Tommy (7 years) 01:13 Divorce grief: "It's like a death… but they're still there" 01:37 The reality of moving + leaving the family home 02:57 A home as a "live photo album" 03:00 Sorting memories, donating, and the emotional weight of purging 04:20 The marriage timeline + shared history in their homes 05:20 Protecting Shams emotionally + what he's noticing so far 05:37 Liat asks: do you have regrets? 06:02 MJ on trying for a long time + feeling disrespected 07:44 Did you outgrow each other? The breaking point 07:51 Apathy, isolation, and feeling taken for granted 08:12 "Lonely in the relationship" 09:06 Staying "for the wrong reasons" 09:32 Liat: why "stay together for the kids" can backfire (subconscious conditioning) 10:33 Why kids want happy parents — and how divorce is handled matters 12:18 The loneliest years + reaching for emotional connection 13:47 Specific example: weekends, sports, and feeling shut out 15:54 The "golf course" dynamic and unmet emotional needs 16:47 Liat reflects on the cycle of shutdown + numbing 17:33 Kabbalah concept: when one grows and the other doesn't 18:06 MJ: Tommy doesn't see his part yet (still raw) 19:05 Logistics + co-parenting in the middle of the move 19:59 Halloween setback + how arguments still show up 20:31 Liat: MJ seems lighter already 21:24 "Higher vibration" + attracting new opportunities 22:28 MJ on protecting her energy through the process 23:15 Grief, love, and accepting "we're not good together" 24:19 The reality of moving chaos (deliveries, exhaustion, survival mode) 25:16 Liat: MJ's glow + "500 bricks off your back" 26:08 MJ: fear, judgment, and making sure Shams is okay 27:31 How Shams is handling two homes so far 28:06 Working together on the move — amicable overall 29:11 Public reaction + how fast it moved 29:28 Advice for anyone scared to leave 30:06 "This needed to happen no matter what" 31:13 Purging a house = purging your life 31:59 MJ stops late-night shopping (no longer filling the void) 32:48 Liat: shifting from surviving to living 33:12 "2026 MJ is coming back to life" 33:40 Closing + parting words 33:59 Outro + how to submit questions + rate/review

On this episode of Heal to Feel, we sit down with Scarlett Lewis, founder of the Choose Love Movement, whose son Jesse was one of the children killed in the Sandy Hook tragedy (December 14, 2012). Choose Love Movement Scarlett shares Jesse's extraordinary courage, the three words he left behind — "Nurturing, Healing, Love" — and how that message became a global movement centered on love, connection, belonging, and post-traumatic growth.  We talk about what Scarlett calls the "choice moment" — the pause between what happens and how we respond — and how teaching kids essential life skills can change homes, classrooms, and communities. Scarlett also opens up about forgiveness, humanizing pain, and the life-changing power of one act of kindness. If this episode moved you, share it with someone who needs hope, healing, and a reminder that love is the strongest choice we have. Timestamps  00:00 – Intro / "It's hard to give love to someone who doesn't love themselves" 01:02 – Meet Scarlett Lewis + Jesse's heroism 02:47 – Scarlett's prayer the day Jesse was born 04:20 – Jesse "patrolling" the farm + bravery from the start 05:30 – The chalkboard message: "Nurturing, Healing, Love" 08:24 – "I love you" in the frost + Jesse's hearts on the windows 09:16 – "That's not going to happen" + Jesse's final goodbye to his dad 12:40 – Scarlett's "couch moment" + choosing her path forward 15:38 – Modeling grief and strength for her surviving son 18:39 – Forgiveness + compassion (even when it's hard) 21:54 – Missed signs + why curiosity matters 24:19 – The common thread: not feeling seen 26:25 – Aaron Stark + the kindness that stopped a planned shooting 27:44 – The Choose Love formula + "choice moment" model 29:04 – Why love, connection, and belonging are the foundation (relationships) Choose Love Movement 31:28 – Post-traumatic growth + focusing on the "grievance" end of the pathway 35:23 – Scarlett's prison story: "You saved two lives" 39:38 – Signs from Jesse + the "healing adventure" 46:01 – Skywriting: "Jesse and Jesus" + "You + God :)" 49:10 – Results in schools: behavior down, scores up, lives changed 50:59 – Town meeting + standing ovation for a love-based solution 52:21 – Working with administrations + proactive prevention 54:22 – The goal: free access for every child 56:07 – How to bring Choose Love to your school + how to contact Guest + resources (links to include) Choose Love Movement (official site): chooselovemovement.org  Book: Nurturing Healing Love (Scarlett Lewis) Heal 2 Feel Instagram: @H2FPOD

We're bringing back one of our most life-altering conversations ever: Anita Moorjani—author of Dying to Be Me—shares the story that stunned the world. Anita takes us from growing up between cultures (and the pressure to people-please) to a devastating cancer diagnosis, the fear that surrounded it, and the moment everything changed: her near-death experience. In this episode, she walks us through what it felt like to leave her body, the "warehouse" analogy that reframed her entire life, the tapestry that revealed how deeply connected we all are, and the unexpected encounter with her father that brought pure unconditional love. We also talk about the difference between curing vs. healing, how your environment ("your marinade") can shape your health, and why self-love isn't selfish—it's essential. If you're navigating illness, grief, burnout, or boundaries, this encore will hit you right in the heart (and leave you seeing life differently). In this episode, we cover: Growing up in clashing cultures + the cost of people-pleasing Fear around the word "cancer" and how focus impacts the body Exploring complementary approaches + the stress of conflicting opinions Anita's near-death experience: leaving her body, hearing everything, and the "warehouse" The "tapestry" vision: why nothing we do is separate Seeing her father on the other side + understanding cultural conditioning Healing vs. curing, boundaries, and "love yourself like your life depends on it" Comfort for anyone facing terminal illness or grief   Timestamps 00:00 Intro 00:12 Welcome + why this guest is "the one we've been waiting for" 00:37 How Liat first discovered Anita at a Wayne Dyer event (2012) 02:24 Cultural identity, immigration, and feeling "different" 03:33 Dying to Be Me + why Anita's NDE is different 04:12 Clashing religions/cultures + early conditioning 07:20 People-pleasing, gender expectations, and arranged marriage pressure 14:45 Two days before the wedding… Anita runs away 17:10 Why her mom understood + breaking generational cycles 20:44 Returning to Hong Kong + community backlash 22:00 Independence, dating, and stigma in the community 24:28 Meeting Danny + choosing love (and freedom) 29:00 Father's passing + unresolved closeness 30:25 Best friend's cancer, guilt, and neglecting self 31:42 Lump → diagnosis: Hodgkin's lymphoma 32:31 "Now I have a reason to take care of myself" 34:13 Fear of chemo + seeking complementary options 35:20 Ayurveda / TCM + being torn between two worlds 38:49 "Wellness awareness" vs "cancer awareness" 40:12 Returning home + the fear "marinade" returns 44:47 Decline, organs shutting down, coma (Feb 2, 2006) 46:12 Hearing doctors while in a coma 48:30 Leaving the body: pain/fear gone, 360° awareness 51:43 Spiritual beings + the "warehouse" analogy 56:42 The tapestry: connection, impact, and life perspective 1:00:23 Understanding why people hurt us + self-love as survival 1:02:49 Seeing her father + unconditional love 1:06:24 "Every religion is a path" + redefining God 1:09:16 Biggest human illusion: separation 1:11:48 Choice point: come back or not 1:17:28 Waking up + validating details she "couldn't have known" 1:19:55 Tumors shrink rapidly + doctors stunned 1:26:17 Healing vs curing (and why illness can return) 1:33:49 Kimberly's question: comfort for grief + terminal illness 1:39:33 Where to find Anita + closing Anita Moorjani Instagram: https://www.instagram.com/anitamoorjani/ Website: anitamoorjani.com Membership: The Anita Moorjani Sanctuary (linked on her website) Heal 2 Feel Instagram: @H2FPOD  

In this powerful episode of Heel 2 Feel, Liat Gerszt and Mercedes "MJ" Javid sit down with YuSon Shin, Reiki Master, medical medium, and Akashic Records practitioner, to explore how past lives, soul contracts, and subconscious patterns can shape our present-day experiences. YuSon explains the Akashic Records—often described as a soul's personal record book—and how unresolved trauma from other lifetimes can appear as fears, blocks, relationship struggles, or health issues today. She reframes karma not as punishment, but as energetic balance and learning. The conversation also dives into the Bengston Method, a visualization-based healing and manifestation technique developed by Dr. William Bengston. YuSon breaks down the four-step "image cycling" process and explains how cycling images rapidly helps bypass subconscious resistance, allowing healing and manifestation to occur more naturally. MJ receives live Akashic insights that shed light on deep family dynamics, boundaries, forgiveness, and why certain emotional patterns feel so persistent. YuSon shares practical tools listeners can use immediately, including grounding techniques, energetic protection, and how to stop absorbing other people's emotional baggage. If you've ever felt stuck—emotionally, physically, or spiritually—this episode offers clarity, perspective, and actionable tools to help you move forward. ✨ Listen, share, and don't forget to rate & review the show. TIMESTAMPS 00:00 What are the Akashic Records? (your personal soul book) 00:16 Welcome + introduction to YuSon Shin 02:04 From psychology to spiritual healing 03:55 Akashic Records explained + clearing past-life trauma 06:27 Karma, fairness, and soul purpose 11:09 Medical mediumship: scanning the body for blocks 12:12 Introduction to the Bengston Method 12:44 Bengston Method: the 4 steps explained 15:39 The cancer-healing mice study + how cycling creates energy 20:15 Why rapid image cycling bypasses subconscious resistance 22:21 The phrase that quiets doubt: "Wouldn't it be nice…" 24:15 Can intuitive abilities be learned? 24:53 YuSon's first mediumship experience (Lilydale) 28:19 Boundaries with spirit: "my service light is on" 30:24 Live Akashic insights for Liat & MJ 35:55 Family karma, forgiveness & energetic boundaries 37:17 Grounding, protection bubbles & the mirror-box technique 39:23 Past-life healer themes & finding your voice 43:05 Why waking up tired can mean you're not grounded 45:28 How to work with YuSon (remote sessions) 47:01 Outro + listener questions + reviews GUEST CONTACT INFO *]:pointer-events-auto scroll-mt-[calc(var(--header-height)+min(200px,max(70px,20svh)))]" dir="auto" tabindex="-1" data-turn-id= "06631241-c6b6-4a7c-9226-ee157c948d3d" data-testid= "conversation-turn-4" data-scroll-anchor="true" data-turn= "assistant"> YuSon Shin — Shin Healing Arts Website: ShinHealingArts.com (also accessible via YuSonShin.com) Sessions: Phone or Zoom (no in-person sessions) Email: [email protected] Instagram: https://www.instagram.com/shinhealingarts/      

This week, we sit with death midwife and Reiki practitioner Barbie Conkling, whose extraordinary journey with her son Lyon reshaped her entire understanding of suffering, consciousness, and the afterlife. Barbie shares the deeply moving story of Lyon's life—from childhood illness to over 40 surgeries, from living boldly despite a terminal diagnosis to consciously preparing for his transition at age 31. She walks us through: ✨ The role of a death midwife and how modern culture lost its death rituals ✨ Conscious vs. unconscious suffering ✨ How to support a loved one at the end of life ✨ The 5 essential phrases every soul needs to hear before they go ✨ How soul contracts work and why Lyon chose his path ✨ The signs she receives from Lyon today ✨ Past-life connections, karmic agreements, and how their bond continues ✨ Using grief as a spiritual awakening and a call to service This episode will change the way you understand death, loss, purpose, and the beauty of what lies beyond the veil. TIMESTAMPS (all references updated to Lyon) 00:00 — The gift of suffering 00:14 — Welcome + introductions 00:54 — What is a death midwife? 02:17 — Ceremonies and honoring the vessel after death 03:11 — Ritual, bathing, anointing, and family involvement 04:36 — Why Western culture lost its death rituals 05:55 — MJ's personal story about loss 07:26 — Fear, resistance & acceptance at end of life 08:22 — Cutting cords, Reiki, and supporting transition 10:20 — The 5 essential things to say to a dying loved one 12:04 — Moon rituals, release vs. manifesting 14:00 — Soul contracts and why we choose our lives 15:09 — How Lyon got his name 17:11 — Lyon's early life and diagnosis 18:40 — Cancer journey, surgeries, and medical struggles 21:55 — Understanding karmic mutations 23:10 — Conscious suffering vs. becoming the suffering 26:06 — When Lyon began accepting his mission 27:15 — Living big despite illness — surfing, motocross, adventure 28:05 — Inspiring others through his journey 29:31 — Lyon's soul mission 31:17 — Facing the end — septic episodes and hospitalizations 32:06 — The moment Lyon chose hospice 33:32 — His siblings and how they processed it 34:20 — The living memorial with 200+ friends 35:49 — Why living memorials matter 37:05 — Guidance for families struggling with acceptance 39:20 — Meeting loved ones where they are 40:50 — Lyon's viral goodbye video 41:57 — How Lyon continues to communicate with her (signs & messages) 43:42 — Past-life connections between mother and son 48:20 — Recurring past-life themes of separation 50:22 — Compassion in the hospital 51:15 — Soul lessons across lifetimes 52:11 — Soulmates, karmic partners & family ties 53:20 — Becoming a mother at 16 & her awakening 54:29 — Lyon's transition and final moments 55:56 — Ceremony with his body & sacred rituals 57:29 — Advice for those supporting a dying loved one 58:24 — Impermanence & the soul's infinite story 59:08 — Identity stripping away—what remains 1:00:14 — After-death work, remembrance & healing 1:01:01 — Where to find Barbie 1:01:36 — Closing statements + the healing prayer GUEST CONTACT INFO Barbie Herron Conkling Website: dancingwiththeveil.com Services: Death Midwifery, Grief Support, Reiki, Spiritual Guidance Instagram: https://www.instagram.com/barbiedahl74/